6.11.2008

And let the WAITING begin!

Today I went to the Doctor. Not a good start...I had to have a full body scan done and a biopsy taken off an area above my left ankle. Scared? HELL ya! I did receive some stitches. I will not find out the results of the biopsy until the 23rd and they will remove my stitches, at that time as well.

It started when my Grandma (the only grandma I have left) had to have some Melanoma removed...she came back with terrible results...Stage 4 Melanoma. It is too late to try and help her. They said with our family history that all of us needed to be scanned. One of my sisters had this done...the findings, Stage 3 Melanoma! She is being very positive right now and I pray for them both daily.

She has had some removed...and must have some more removed, along with one that needs to be redone. So, I made an appointment, because frankly it scares the hell out of me. The main area that is causing concern, is a large birthmark. It has all the characteristics for Melanoma. So until the 24th, I will play the waiting game. I am not very good at this. The doctor said that if it comes back negative, I will have to go back yearly and have it rechecked. He said with my family history, it is nothing to mess with.

Today is gloomy...it goes along with how I feel. It already rained (tears from Heaven) and is now chilly out. A good day to just stay inside and just be. I have a custom order to make, so I will be working on that later today. So many thoughts are running through my head. It will get better. Toodles for now, ~Tonya

23 comments:

Crowing About Primitives said...

Tonya, my thoughts have been on you all day since your emial... The waiting games has got to be the worst.. so many thoughts come in.. all I can say is be positive, keep busy until then, try not to let your mind wonder... Big Big Hugs to you.. Ann

Anonymous said...

Tonya,
I just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Waiting is always so hard.You always sound so positive and upbeat. Please continue to do so.
Diane
Wilmington, NC

Jenny said...

Tonya,

I hope you are able to relax and not be anxious for your results. You are in my thoughts and I pray that everything is okay.

I have not gotten much done today either...it is cool here to and I am just not very motivated. Try to have fun and just remember worrying does will not change things, just be grateful about what you do have in your life.

Hugs and love,

Jenny

Jer 17:14 Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved: for thou [art] my praise.

Melissa said...

Tonya, You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I know how you are feeling. Waiting is the worse and I know how scary it is. Take care! HUGS Melissa

Country*Road*Primitives said...

Tonya, I had to go to a dermotologist because I have much sun damage and a few moles. I am blonde and fair. I was relieved to know that I had AGE spots... I had to chuckle at being HAPPY to have age spots! I am praying for you and your family. Please try to remain positive and continue to make your awesome primitive dolls. *sending thoughts and prayers to you and yours* Carla

Anonymous said...

Tonya,

My thoughts are with you....... Hugs please try to relax... It is really sad that we have this in our family~ I guess I am next to have a scan done. I will make an appointment on Friday. I need to have a yearly check up that I haven't had done in a while~

Hugs~Kim:)

Pea said...

Tonya,
Ya know that I am praying for you ( and family)and I am sure you will be fine. I have faith. The waiting is so hard, I know trust me, I know- been there, but if you need me I am here for ya and always. YOu only have to get through today as my friend says. Worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
Hope Kim goes to the doc soon.
Hugs,Pea

Doreen said...

Tonya, I'm so sorry! I know from a past scare....the waiting and not knowing is terrifying. Do the best you can to stay positive and not let the worry take over.

I am praying for you and your family.

Big hugs,
Doreen

Shay said...

Tonya,
You are in my thoughts and prayers. As well as your sister and Grandmother. I know how hard it is to play the waiting game and all the "what if's" that go along with them. I know that he also will not give you anymore than you can handle. Keep your faith strong. Many blessings to you and your family hon. I will be thinking about you! Many hugs,
Shannon ;)

Wings and Paws Primitives said...

Keep your chin up..... You are in my thoughts and prayers... I know everyone tells you "don't worry" but, it is all consuming. I know you cannot get it out of your head so, do your best to stay distracted and we will all pray for GOOD NEWS! Lots of Love and Hugs, Mo

erika's cupboard said...

Tonya...I'm so sorry to hear your fear with the spot on your leg. I can tell you not to worry but I'd be freaking too!! LOL LOL I'm a worry wart from the get-go. But ya know something,there's not a darned thing you can do about any of this until the 23rd. So my dear, try to enjoy TODAY, not worry about the yesterdays and just live today. Today is all we are guaranteed so look around you and I know you will feel blessed.
I'll be praying for you too.
Blessings my friend,Erika

~Tonya said...

THANK YOU to each and every one of you who have left a comment on this post.

Thank you for the kind words, the prayers and so forth. I really do appreciate them.

It is hard for me not to think about this...but I am trying really hard not too.


TO my sis KIM...Yes, you defintely NEED to go in and be scanned.

Hugs and much Luv,
~Tonya

Maggie said...

Oh Tonya, sorry to hear about the spot on your leg. I too am praying that it is NOT cancer. I too have had to play the waiting game and fortunately... all my games I won!!!
It is a horrifying time and I pray our Lord will bring you comfort and peace.

I will put you on my prayer list and keep you in my thoughts always.

Blessings to you
Maggie

tattered 'n torn prims said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers as you walk this journey....May you feel His light guide you and carry you through!! Stay possitive!!

Blessings
Stacey

Tammy said...

Hey Tonya,
I know it is hard but be positive. That is what I am doing. I try not to think about it! Believe me, I bawled a lot and I felt instantly sick when i found out but I have to stay strong! I am way too young for this stuff and I have to live for my girls and grandkids and yes all my hobbies! I guess maybe I have to live until I am least 120 cause I have sooo much to do LOL

I will pray for you and our whole family. This stuff is scary and it should be brought to people's attention. This is nothing to mess with.

Stay strong and I know you have enough to keep you busy so try not to think about it. I know easier said than done.

Enjoy this beautiful weather!
Luv and Hugs Tammy

Dena ~ swaddlecottage said...

Hi Tonya,

I know how hard it can be waiting for results. Know that I'll be thinking of you and praying.


Hugs,
Dena

Prim and Proper Folks said...

Tonya...I am so sorry to hear this news!!! I will definitely keep you and your family in my prayers. Wish I was there to give you a big hug, my friend....I am with you in spirit!! Susan

Pam said...

Tonya i am so sorry to hear your news. I pray that it comes back good. I will also pray for your family. I know that it is hard to wait for the test results. I was diagnosed with breast cancer 14 years ago. And i'm still here. So please believe and hold on tight to your family. (((((HUGS))))
Pam
Prims*by*Pam

Dogpatch Primitives said...

Tonya, I'm so sorry to hear of your worry, it is sure understandable. The waiting is always the hardest part, b/c we tend to think the worst. Please try to stay busy and keep hopeful, OK?
We'll be waiting for the good news right along w/ you :)

The Crackling Crows said...

Hey Tonya,
I'm so sorry to read about your ankle! I'm glad that you went to the doctor!

I know how you are feeling...I had a melanoma close to my belly button...so far I have about 15 removed...they were all in a beginning stage...but the one on my belly was bad...but after my second surgery everything is fine.

I will keep you in my prayers Tonya!!!

Hugs Ivonne

Lorraine said...

Tonya, I will definitely be praying for you!!
Sending lots of love and hugs!!

Wings and Paws Primitives said...

Hey you, just wonderin' if you got your results... popped in to make sure everything is okey dokey???

Hugs, Mo

~Tonya said...

Hi Mo, I have not heard anything yet.

My appt. is not till the 24th! I have to wait sooooo long.

Thank you for stopping by and asking thou.

Hugs,
~T