10.25.2008

So now what?

Ever feel like the walls are closing in on you? And then you say "So now what?" I can't help but look up and wonder and ask why? My husband went to the Doctor, for his second check-up, after his second sinus surgery....well, the results not good! He had his first check up and the left side was okay, the right side, not good. They gave him a steroid shot (hoping to reduce the inflammation) and also a rare prescription nasal spray (that most places do not even carry) hoping to help. It did not. It knocked some infection loose, into his body and he was sick with Bronchitis. So, then he went into the local Doc. for a Z-Pak, more prescription drugs.

On Friday, that is when he went in for his second check up, for his second surgery (about an hour away), the Doctor could not even get his scope, up into his sinus area, to look. They are both becoming blocked again. The Doctor shook his head and repeated 3 times, "I don't know what to do". Makes you feel real confident, that you are in good hands, right? So, now they prescribed some more antibotics (I think he has been on everything and nothing has worked, thus far) and also an oral steroid...hoping to reduce the inflammation. Now he must go back in 14 days.

They hope to be able to look into his sinus cavities, if not...yet another CAT SCAN and a possible 3rd surgery. Remember, this is a different doctor, from the first and a different set of eyes. SO NOW WHAT? I fear every time he goes under. I fear the worst, something that is embedded and will only get worse. I pray. That is about all one can do. Things have got to get better! In so many more ways then one and in more circumstances then just hubby's sinus problems.

Things are difficult right now. I do hope they get better and I am trying to stay positive. But it is hard. I have not updated for a while...and I know that I have received some AWARDS, Thank you. I have not forgotten, but I do not do awards well. I always drop the ball. It is not that I do not appreciate them...I just do not have the time, most of the time. I am busy making things for TDIPT Mercantile update. I am running behind...I just do not seem to have enough time lately and my mind can not stay focused.

Sorry this was not the most postitive post, but we do not live in a perfect world. And after all, we are all human, with so many emotions. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I will be working. Peaceful Blessings, ~Tonya

14 comments:

Char said...

Tonya....i am adding you and your hubby to our Prayer list at my church...we have some real prayer warriors and I am confident that we can reach the throne of God just for this!...The Word says to seek HIS face first, and that is what we are going to do for both of you!...(((((hugs & blessings coming your way!))))

Jenny said...

Oh boy, I am so sorry to hear about all his problems. Sounds like a train reck that you cannot get off. Well, for what it is worth I pray for a miracle..cuz that is what it might take. Doctors can be so frustrating. Sounds like you have way too much on your plate. I hope it gets better!

Hugs~


Jenny

From A Creative Heart said...

Sometimes we just need to let out the stuff that is bogging us down...hopefully in a place where there is no judgement...just a heart to hear.
I feel for you on so many levels...I have been dealing with a sick hubby for several years...and unless you have walked it, you can't really understand.
Hugs to you....prayers are being said for you and your hubby!!!
Use your creativity as the gift that it is....it is one of those things that can help keep you sane during these times!!!

Dani said...

Tonya, This is first time I'm learning of your hubby's condition, and getting to know you, since I'm new to the blog land here. I am so sorry you're both going through such frustrations. I will keep you both in my prayers and thoughts. I hope that this treatments will shed some light and relieve him. Hopefully he won't have to go through 3rd surgery. Keep your chin up, have faith. Hopefully things will lighten up for you both. Don't stress about everything, take care of you and family. Hugs
Dani

Pam said...

Tonya I will pray for you and your hubby. I pray that they figure out what is wrong with him and fix it. I know how scared you both must be. Take care of you and him and we are always here for you if you need to talk.

Hugs pam

The Smiling Goat said...

Tonya... a friend of mine when thru the exact thing! They could not figure out what to do! He then went to a specialist in Raliegh NC. HE has some kind of condition and has to stay on a certain antibiotic. He is 100% better ever since he went tho this guy!I will get the exact facts and e-mail them to you.Is the Dr. your hubby seeing a specialist? I will keep you all in my prayers.stay calm and focus on the things you can control! Many blessings your way and I will e-mail soon!

Kim

Bittersweet Pastimes said...

Hang in there Tonya! You're right things will get better. Right now there's so much negative stuff surrounding us that it seems like it doesn't take much to drag us way down. I'll be praying for your dh, and you. Take care- Deb

Tallowberry said...

Tonya, I was so sorry to read about your husband's problems. I just figured the second surgery did the trick and now possibly a third surgery! I'll keep your family in my prayers, life can seem so over-whelming at times, but hang in there, we're all with you.

Take care of yourself and I'll be hoping the antibiotics do the job.

~Diane~

Shay said...

Tonya~
I'm so sorry the surgery didn't work, how frustrating that your husband and family are just continuing to go through this! I hope very soon this doctor can do some research and find out just what's wrong with him. Keeping you and your hubby in my thoughts and prayers. I hope the antibiotics are taking effect and providing him with some much needed relief! Sending out so many hugs to you, I think you & I might be going down that same frustration path right now. :)
Many hugs to you for a brighter day,
Shay

~GoldieLoo Woodworks~ said...

Tonya I can only imagine how stressful this is for you. I wish yall the best and speedy "get well".
Hugs~~Pam

Debra Facer said...

Tonya, I just wanted to send you a big hug, when I am feeling the way you are a hug always seems to help. Hugs are good.. xxooDeb

Country*Road*Primitives said...

Tonya, *sending hugs and prayers* Once they get the infection under control, he may need some type of maintenance substance to help him ward off the infections. Keep your chin up and get some rest. Maybe you can take some things off of your plate for awhile and concentrate on what your priorities may need to be right now. I know I have to do that every now and then :) You are so busy and do so much - do not forget to take time out for yourself. xox

Janelle said...

Tonya....I too will add you and your hubby to my prayers.
And you're right - when things seem to be closing in and out of control, you get to the point that all you can do is pray, and that's surely a step in the right direction.
Romans 8:28 says, "And we know that in ALL things, God works together for good, for those who love him and are called according to his purposes".
That verse has gotten me through some very rough times, and the Lord has been faithful in that promise.
Janelle

fiddlestixstudios said...

Tonya,I am so sorry to hear that your Hubs' second surgery doesn't seem to be working.I can't imagine the frustration you two must be feeling!My prayers will most definitely be with you and your family.I know it's so hard,when you feel like you're gettin' it from all sides!I'll be praying for God to lead you guys to the right doctor.
Hugs:),
~Mandy